That kinda feeling...
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Hmm i was thinking of a theory unconciously for a while..
I think that feelings don't just go so easily..
Even though you may not think of it anymore/at all, when you actually see that person or something that reminds you of them there will still be something..
This is what i think.. those people in the past, i think that if i do see them again ever i may still act the same way as i used to but less maybe..

e.g this guy in yr 8-9 - i always observed him or u could say "stalked" :P
so i guess if i ever see him again i may still be shy to actually talk to him hahaha.. and still try to avoid contact but just observe at a distance...
So the term "falling out of love" - well even tho i do not think it was love.. but just attraction maybe.. but if you put that term in there you could say that attraction is always there, just that distance makes you "forget" it.. "out of sight out of mind" thing, it is true..
But for "absence makes the heart grow fonder" - i don't think that would happen for me, maybe cos i was too young haha.. but it might happen if i dwell on it a lot hehe, like if i think of those times "we" had,.. not that we had any.. but the "contact/snipets of time" we had..
Like after i had left that school and went to Abbotsleigh, i regreted not being friends with him, but then i also think now that maybe we could never be friends...
Anyway he wasn't Christian and sweared :P
I always used to recall those times again and again cos they were so "cute" :P the way he tried to get my attention in yr 7, and how people in class liked to put us together. Then later when he seemed like he wasn't "interested" in me, i started to like him.. and i still remember, outside the music room, i thought to myself "it's ok to like someone" lol... But i think i thought about those "moments" too much that i later had dreams with him briefly in it..
But i was so innocent then... lol..